I am Black, but to break it down, my ethnic background is African/Native American/Venezuelan. Therefore, the term "African-American" is a limiting misrepresentation. That statement may offend some, but this is who I am.
I may not look it, but I'm 37 years old. And usually guys younger than me get worn out by just watching me. Can you keep up? The only way to know for sure is to try. Start at my website,
http://tre-x.com,
http://myspace.com/trexavier
&
LASTLY, BUT IMPORTANT
If you only have 1 race of people on your friends list, DO NOT SEND ME A FRIEND REQUEST. You are on an American-based website.
So open your heart to at least friendship to every race
Or on my list, you will have no place.
Tre Xavier's view of things in this world. The new title represents his reptutation in his blogs to see beneath the surface,and share that discovery with you.
Erotic Poetry: Lustin' Season (11/19/08) [View | Hide]
I seem to be getting alot of attention lately. I have prospects that I've met online, at bar night parties, and there's even a possibility of some on my day job. I started thinking, "What is going on here?" All of the sudden I have more sexual prospects now then I've ever had since my coming out about 6 1/2 years ago. Then again, I have been going out more than ever before, even to bars, which before was quite rare, but it's always for an event night. Maybe that's why my prospects have suddenly widened. Widened -just like my asshole from the big cocks I've been accommodating. Luckily, I do Kegels to keep my rep for having a tight hole.
Whenever something has a profound effect on me, if it doesn't become a regular blog post, it becomes lyrics instead. And this new found babe magnet I've seem to have become lately, definitely has had a profound effect on me, because I never expected this, nor am I letting it go to my head. It's just that my expressing its effect came with a sensual rhythm and erotic words. So I'm just safely having fun with it, and I hope you do too by way of these lyrics.
Is it the season Sparking your fire To give me some signs I'm a new desire? Has it been in you all along Or am I misreading your eyes? Then why the need to talk Making idle chatter? Is a part of you Getting longer and fatter? With every single word you speak Do you hope one day to make me weak And drop down on my knees? Kneeling to worship yours And bring you closer to cream With senses tingling in some ways You thought were only in dreams
I'm not so hot That I'm the cat's meow Yet many eyes on me Seem on the prowl So much attention is new to me The sexual tension needs to be set free So it's not just you I'm feeling it, too With such sexy prospects Who will I choose For a back and forth dance inside Or flip the script for the hottest ride? My loins throb to be satisfied Whoever wins me Better prepare to get wet Time is running out to make a show That we won't forget
Tick-tock My body's clock It's tickin' Just won't stop Craving to tick as one with yours Even if it's just One night It's for lust Not love's plight As long as we're both aware We can be fully prepared
Let's go and bask in this lustin' season And soothe that itch made by primal reason Cause our bodies are cravin' Some misbehavin' Don't let the sun set on this time That we have this fever to be in twined
2 Nights Of Me...Stripped Down With A Smile? (11/17/08) [View | Hide]
Within the next 48 hours, it will be my next Porno Bingo appearance, and I couldn't be more excited. In preparation for November 19th, I took that day off from my day job so that I'll be well-rested when I arrive. Ready and willing to get stripped down wearing only my skivvies and a smile. I'm also taking the next day off, because (1) I don't plan on going right home, whether alone or with friend(s), I'm hanging out afterwards to celebrate, and (2) I don't really care to see all those whining wannabe-god-attorneys and the pathetically submissive co-workers at the law firm I work at the day after having what I'm sure will be a FUN night.
So remember, Will Clark's PORNO BINGO is held every Wednesday night from 8 - 10 PM at Pieces Bar which is located at 8 Christopher Street (@ 6th Avenue), NYC, with my guest appearance being THIS WEDNESDAY from 8 - 10 PM.
Last week, I was posting bulletins on MySpace, DList, and Facebook telling of my being a competitor in the Monster's Go-Go Idol contest here in NYC. I am progression to the next round, so my Thursday night that I thought was going to be free, isn't anymore. But considering how last week turned out, I'm not complaining.
Because you see, whether I go to the next round or not, as for right now, I'm getting to gawk at some hot guys when I'm backstage. All of whom might I add would be great candidates for my fantasy of being gang-banged by a bunch of go-go boys. So I'm going to ride (not their cocks.... yet, but) this contest out for as long as the judges and the crowd will let me. I mean coming in to stand so close to hotties with fit physiques wearing only either a g-string, briefs, or jockstrap, a horndog like me can't help but get a great start at getting inspired to do a sexy dance. The continued inspiration will come from the audience, so come down, and be my inspiration.
The next week of Go-Go Idol will be held on Thursday night November 20th at The Monster, which is located at 80 Grove Street (@ Sheridan Square) in New York City.
I hope to see you at both events with my pants off ;-)
Tré's Good When He's With The BAAD! (11/15/08) [View | Hide]
So come down to Pieces Bar this Wednesday, November 19th, when I'll be a guest caller, and when I leave, I can go and cum buckets.
I've mentioned before my upcoming appearance this week at Will Clark's PORNO BINGO on November 19th. So what's the deal with the 1st line of this blog post? I'm just using the scientific fact that wearing less confining underwear leads to bigger cumloads, because besides all the other great prizes like a book from the STARZ series that you can win from a round of PORNO BINGO, I've agreed to let my underwear be auctioned off. So whoever wins the auction will be making me go home commando, because I have no intention of bringing a spare pair. And I just might make a video of the result of my going commando if I leave there to play alone. With that in mind, I'm sure you hope I don't leave there with the intent of sharing it with anyone, unless it's you.
If you've seen me at past Porno Bingo appearances, then you know that I don't wear common underwear. So get ready to feast your eyes on something goooood.
All of this will be to help the beneficiary of the evening, BAAD! (Bronx Academy of Arts and Dance). A great cause with the arts being such a vital resource to our human need for expression.
So once agian, come share some fun with me, and the gang on Wednesday, November 19th at Will Clark's PORNO BINGO held at Pieces Bar, 8 Christopher Street (@ 6th Ave.), NYC.
I've seen this happen before now it's happening again. Actually it has always been there, but not to this magnitude. I'm talking about checking the stats of my website and finding out the people coming to my site are from a variety of countries. Within the past few weeks alone, there have been Google searches leading to my site from the usuals of America and the U.K., then comes the occasional Australia and Canada, but the newbie countries to name are Spain, Senegal, and get this - homophobia-ridden Jamaica.
I may call Jamaica "homophobia-ridden", but while I'm not lying based on what I've overheard through the years from actual straight Jamaicans on their feelings towards gays, I do greatly appreciate the Jamaican fans I may have just like I appreciate my fans all over the globe.
When I do an appearance like at Will Clark's PORNO BINGO, I've recently come to realize that fans being all over the globe is probably why a select few come to actually see me. Maybe since I seem to be suddenly growing in popularity for some reason, that will change come November 19th.
From all my friends lists on MySpace, DList, and Facebook, as well as my Yahoo! group, I realize that my fanbase is spread out with some here and some there, both all over the country and all over the globe. I actually find that very flattering. I have a feeling some, but not all of the big name pornstars here in the US don't get as much recognition overseas. Porn actors of colors, however seem to be a different story. The bigger names in ethnic porn are all noticed. In fact, even I myself recently found someone from overseas recognizing me from my work with Pitbull Productions.
A perfect example of this is from FlavaWorks star, Breion Diamond. A few months ago, Breion told me about how he was amazed when he went to Paris, and a Parisian approached him fascinated, and calling him by name. Between that story, my story, and the success of Pitbull's "Tiger's Eiffel Tower: Paris Is Mine" I have reason to believe that ethnic porn probably has a bigger following amongst European Whites than it does here with American Whites. The reasons why that is such a shame will be dealt with in an upcoming blog series.
Whether it's a shame or not, I can't express enough how appreciative I am to know that I have sparked an interest in people outside of the U.S. along with those fans I already have here. And they're not only going to my website, but making their way to this blog as well. I just hope that I can keep entertaining and educating you by what I do and say in movies, my appearances, and my words on this blog.
Thank you wholeheartedly and B.U2B. FREE,
P.S., To all those in the New York City area on November 19th, I hope to greet you all at Will Clark's Porno Bingo.
ULTIMATE STARZ - The Turn Out (11/8/08) [View | Hide]
I got a copy of ULTIMATE STARZ from STARbooks Press. STARbooks Press was kind enough to donate the entire STARZ series as part of the prize packages for my November 19th appearance at Will Clark's Porno Bingo. I plan on autographing the copy of ULTIMATE STARZ given to the winner of the gift bag from that round of Porno Bingo. With the beneficiary being BAAD! (Bronx Academy of Arts & Dance), it's my way to say "Thanks for your part of donating to a good cause".
I was very happy with how the interview turned out. In fact, I don't recall any editing, or (to be more exact) cutting out of what I had to say no matter how controversial it may have been in lighting a fire under some producers, directors, and maybe even fellow porn actors.
Sometimes I feel I made a big mistake in choosing a stage name that has me most likely to placed dead last if one chooses to call names in alphabetical order. For a moment, I felt the same way about ULTIMATE STARZ, but after careful thought, I see that thanks to the editing, you can say that I close the show. Not just because of my words, but even more so in my opinion, because of the photos of me they used. The 2 photos they used just happen to be photos that many seem to like, but it's where they put the 2nd photo that makes all the difference.
It's on the very last page of the interview. Me in all my rear raunchy glory. I won't give you a pic here. BUY THE BOOK, SEE THE PIC.
And get this, my Mom read the interview. I don't know how much she read, but she read enough. Including a quote they put in bold print where I talk about cock sizes by length and width. She thought my asshole must be stretched to an unhealthy degree because she mistakenly thought of "width" meaning inches from left to right of the cock, instead of "width" meaning inches around the cock (or it's more mathematic term, circumference) as we normally do when we speak of cock sizes.
Now, I'm not giving out any more details about myself or any of the hotties featured in the book. Therefore, if you want more info, you either have to buy your own, or come down to Porno Bingo and try winning it on November 19th.
Gotta Kick Myself: Porn Regrets Born (11/5/08) [View | Hide]
While many of us are basking in the joy of Barrack Obama becoming the Presidential Elect, along with this great new day, comes our duties of a normal day such as my entertaining and educating you with this blog.
The subject matter has nothing to do with this year's election. While I am quite proud of the outcome, I am more than aware that enough has been said and will be said about it to choke a horse. So I would like to present a good sidetrack, if you will.
I am someone who lives their lives with few regrets. If I fuck up, I just deal with the consequences and take them as a lesson to be learned, which is why I should have no regrets. That has changed recently with me hearing of Nickolay Petrov pleading guilty to pretty much being a killer for hire. When I read a post on Men Of Color Blog about it, I posted this comment that explains my regret:
First off, let me apologize for the length of this commentary.
In my interview in ULTIMATE STARZ, I was asked if I was making a movie called, "Tre X's Orgy" who would I want as my four co-stars.
I chose Nickolay Petrov as one of those four. And that is the one and only answer I regret giving in that entire interview.
It's scary to think that the one time I would have put my disdain for "gay-for-pay" actors aside, I would have wound up having my ass pounded by a guy with so much anger in denying his true self that he lets it out by way of violence towards others. Maybe that's why he fucks like a primal beast? Realizing that may be the case, what I used to love seeing, I now no longer do.
And he's not the only proof of this. Marcus Allen, Mark Dalton, and an actual past scene partner of mine, Double R are also "gay-for-pay" actors accused of violent crimes. With "gay-for-pay" actors being the most (maybe only) type of gay porn actors accused of violent crimes makes the "gay-for-pay" hype even more scary.
Producers, directors, and fans need to ask themselves what I did about Nickolay, "What the hell are we doing hyping up these cowards in self-denial."
At least I'm admitting to my poor judgement. When will the rest do the same?
While I regret naming Nickolay, I am still looking at how as they say "every cloud has a silver lining". That cloud being the racism within the gay porn industry. This is a case where that racism may have very well saved me from having to regret something worst that fantasizing about Nickolay Petrov. That regret being of actually being in a scene with Nickolay Petrov, just as I regret the one I did with Double R. So odd as it may seem to say, I may very well need to say at least in this case, "Thank you, Racism. You saved me some regrets."
With that in mind, I wonder how do guys like Kurt Wild feel knowing they were fucked by a killer for hire. Then again, Kurt Wild is a bad example, because he's also "gay-for-pay" insisting he's straight while he's married with children, so may be very well have that same violence by way of self-denial pumping through his veins. And I know from which I speak because while I admit here and now that I have a bad temper, it was way more out of control before I came to terms with the truth of my sexual orientation.
So on this great day in American history, just as many should soon come to regret their lack of faith in our Presidential elect, since I am not that foolish, I have a different regret that's nowhere near as bad in its place. And while I'm kicking myself for it, I hope during the next 4 years, those others have regrets that makes them need to kick themselves much harder.
Will Clark's Contest Wants Your Best Jerk-Off Tale (11/2/08) [View | Hide]
There was a great contest in Will Clark's latest newsletter. He wants your best jerk-off stories.
I wanted to enter myself, but as you can see from my last post, with a 4 out of 5 star rating at GayForIt.com, I've been deemed a bit of a professional at choking the chicken.
So since I'm disqualified, I'm passing on this good news to you. The contest details in the newsletter reads:
We're all anxious .. the Election on Tuesday has us running in circles - No on Prop 8 in California and Yes on 2 in Florida and deciding on a President and VP.. it's making usually normal people act pretty nutty... but you know what I like to do when I get over anxious? That's right, rub one out. So, here's a limited time offer.. between now and 5 pm on November 5th go to http://www.willclarkworld.com and write your best JO story in the comments section of the blog at the top of the site and you could win four YES FOUR 1990s era reissues from Channel 1 Releasing featuring the hottest stars of the Clinton era. Fantasize about a time when we weren't embroiled in a never ending war, we had a surplus in the budget and well, interns were getting lucky in the Oval Office. I'm the only judge in this competition .. so get me riled up and you've got yourself some FREE PORN!! Sounds like a sweet deal to me. So what are you guys waiting for? -----
-----GET TO WORK WRITING ABOUT YOUR JERK!!!!
Inspiring My Fire, 19 and Higher (11/1/08) [View | Hide]
When the video from the post "Scholar Meets Athlete" at Men Of Color Blog started playing, the second I saw that "8teenboy.com" pop up on the screen, I had a flashback to all the times I given webcam shows during online chats. Most of them were while chatting on DList.com, and the reason the words "8teenboy" caused that flashback to those chats is because of the age of most of those guys I had those chats and gave those webcam shows to - not 18, but add 1.....and you get 19.
So I made this video as a THANKS to those horny 19 year-olds and all the sexy others I've had the pleasure of giving a webcam show to. Because they made me aim higher to please all of my fans. That's why be you a top or bottom, you'll should find a point in this video that should please you most, because I assume the positions to accommodate your preferred style.
So I hope you enjoy the video, and THANKS for your continued support.
I never imagined that the time would come where I could imagine being married to the man I plan on loving for the rest of my life in any state or country. But times have changed to where it is a possibility in some countries, and in America, in some states. Too few states if you ask me, and if Proposition 8 goes through, California will no longer be one of those few.
Proposition 8 is a motion to ban same-sex marriages in California. One part of this being such a travesty is because as of right now, California is one of the few states that allow same-sex marriages, so if Proposition 8 goes through, all those same-sex marriages that have taken place since California permitted them will be null and void. How cruel? How void of humanity for a government to allow people who love each other of whatever gender to get married, then take that joy of them being married away? And what makes it worse is the state's governor being behind this - Arnold Schwarzenegger.
Arnold Schwarzenegger is the worst kind of immigrant, because he has lived his life by the culture rules embraced by the common politician. He takes what he can from the country he has made his home (in this case being America), then uses the power he has gained to step on those who brought him there. So not just like your common politician, but even more so like your common Republican.
To explain, part of what made Schwarzenegger a movie star, and gain the popularity that allowed him to become governor was his gay following. While he may not agree with homosexuality and gay marriage from his personal religious cultural standpoint, what right does he have to force that on to a part of the population that brought him to where he is? Marriage should be between 2 consenting individuals in love, be they man and woman, man and man, or woman and woman. No state, or even country law for that matter, should dictate whether or not I should be able to marry the one I love. Therefore this should not be an issue. But as karma would have it, Governor Schwarzenegger's greed for power has manifested itself so well physically by making him into the sagging' titted lard-ass he is today. Sagging titties representing the sorrow he brings to Californian against Proposition 8 and his other Republican hypocritical bullshit stands. And his presently being such a shadow of his former self as a lard-ass, which I take as him getting fat off of his lust for power to think he's some kind of god.
So many Californians have been made happy by same-sex marriages being allowed. And not just those who are gay, but the straight people in their lives as well who want nothing more for them than to see them happy. I bet many have brought this to California government's attention, but with their power hungry ego-trips, they refuse to listen. Well let your voice be heard NOW. Because if we can beat Proposition 8 in California, it will be a sign to all the other states that gays love just like straights and we have evolved enough to have a "live an let live" mentality about love between 2 consenting adults.
Thereby allowing gays to keep the right to express that love to the same magnitude as straights do, Because it is what we all as human beings deserve.
And even if Proposition 8 goes through, we should not let that deter us from the fight that has begun. So no matter how it turns out, let it be the start of us being heard and grow louder from state to state by....
....Voting NO to Proposition 8. Proposition 8 be damned!
In August of last year, I received an email asking me to be a part of a pornstar interview book. I was suspicious at first, but once the author revealed himself to be Owen Keehnen, author of pornstar interview books, STARZ and More STARZ, I was ready and willing to answer all questions. The name of the book is ULTIMATE STARZ, and after going to Owen Keehnen's website and seeing some of the way bigger names of other models interviewed, I am quite honored to have been asked.
I'm looking forward to seeing how my interview was edited (if at all), because if you've read any of my past interviews, you then know that I give very detailed answers, especially regarding certain issues. So my biggest concern is that those certain issues weren't dodged. I hope it was shown that while I greatly enjoy what I do, it could be if possible) multiple times more enjoyable if those factors that should and could easily undone, were undone.
I'm also looking forward to reading what some of the other models that I've lusted so long for have to say. I'm hoping they didn't show themselves to be as dumb as a bucket of rocks, or even dumber by letter a PR machine do all the work of answering Owen's questions. Instead, they made themselves a whole lot more sexy by showing there's a truly intellectual being within that gorgeous face and bod that I would love to kiss, grope, suck, and fuck. ULTIMATE STARZ comes out on October 30, 2008 so you can order yours now at Amazon.com. I'm sure you'll also soon be able to buy it from other gay book retailers as well. So ENJOY, and I hope I did you proud.
Single By The Curse Of Culture (10/23/08) [View | Hide]
When I tell people that I'm single, people often ask me, "You're so cute, why are you single?".
Well, to be honest what ever degree of cute I may be should not dictate as to whether I'm single or not. ANYONE being in a relationship should be dictated by finding someone who they feel is worthy of their heart, mind, body, and soul. And I have yet to find that special someone yet, and I'm not forcing it. So you may be asking with some many people out there, what could be stopping me from finding a special someone.
Simple answer.
What's stopping me from finding that special someone is the fact that no one so far is man enough to show some individuality by not being so loyal to the rules of some culture that they take on the negative traits from that culture as well.
This should not come as a surprise. I have often said that I don't like stereotypical people. And why would I when I myself am not a stereotypical Black man? After all for starters, I do talk proper English.
There are many rules within certain cultures that are positive, and some are negative. Whether that culture be based on ethnicity, regional origin, religion, sexuality, etc., we have to show the individuality it takes to separate the positive and the negatives of that culture. My single status is due to the fact, that while I try to live by that rule, few males do the same, thereby making themselves overgrown little boys unworthy of sharing in what my heart, mind, body, and soul have to offer. I am by no means claiming to be perfect, but I'm sure most of my flaws are based on my distinct personality traits, instead of cultural traits as practically all the guys from my past.
A perfect example of this can be shown by my revisiting a name you loyal readers haven't heard from me in awhile - Igor. While being originally from Russia claiming he was (as I am still) disappointed with American gay culture, he adopted so many of the negative stereotypical traits of American gay culture (such as the shallowness) that he not only made himself unfit to be my lover as I was originally hoping for with him, but he adopted those negatives to the extent that he made himself become deemed unfit by me to be even just a friend. You see, I could except flawed judgement to an extent, because while I said that I'm not perfect, I accept that in others as well, but some imperfections just go too far for my tolerance.
This may ruffle some feathers, but iof the many cultures I can use as example, I'll use the most common - Black and White. Black culture, which nowadays is more and more being dominated by hip-hop culture therefore has rules that are based too much on street-smarts for my taste. Because besides the improper English, it is also stereotyped with homophobia and disrespect towards women in general by constant use of the word, "bitch". While White culture is based too much on book-smarts for my taste. You have no idea how much I hate the stereotypical White terminology, "I'm educated", because most (if not all) of the people who I've known to make that claim have traded book-sense for common sense. Trust me on this, I see this everyday at the law firm I work at where me and my co-workers get asked the most simple-minded questions that just a little use of common sense would make no need to ask. And the reason why this happens is because neither one exhibiting stereotypical behavior decides to create a balance between street-smarts and book-smarts.
Now while these behaviors may be common to those stereotypical of their race, it is of course possible for people to adopt the rules of other ethnic or societal cultures, as I mentioned in Igor's case. BUT all too often, they adopt the bad more than the good of that culture. Hence the reason you have Whites who call themselves "wiggas"and are usually just as rude and obnoxious as the stereotypical Black, and Blacks who call themselves "educated", but just like their Whites cohorts, have traded book-sense for common sense.
As I often answer questions before you can put them in any comments you may have, I must assure you that as a Black man, my annoyance with Blacks claiming to be "educated" has nothing to do with me envying them because I have a high school education. After all, considering the constant display of common sense and looking below the surface of things that I have displayed on this blog since its beginning, I ask you, what reason would I have to envy them? NONE AT ALL, because I practice what I preach by trying to create a balance of both street-smarts and book-smarts that I feel has and still does give me survival skills in this world that make me practically invincible. To the extent that I will only be beaten by the hands of God.
So in regards to the Black and White friends that I have, they are my friends because they don't so follow the rules of their race's culture that they've (massively, if at all) adopted it negatives, nor have they erroneously so followed another race's culture that they have adopted that culture's negatives. They have learned the art of taking on the good and leaving behind the bad. The same as I try to do.
That is why with all of the variety of people I have come in contact with, I personally have taken note of both, the behavioral traits embedded in them because of a specific culture they allow themselves to be ruled by. Also, just in case I might not be around them for long, I listen to what they have to say are the traditions within the culture that they allow themselves to be ruled by. With that in mind, I have tried to live my life by adopting those behavioral traits that make me a productive individual, and discarding the ones that do not. If I could meet a single male who is individual enough, therefore adult enough, therefore man enough, therefore intellectual enough to do the same, then I might not have the single status that I have today.
Well according to the book, "The Secret Language of Birthdays" people born on my day are very tenacious, so I am quite patient in waiting for what I want. And as an Aries, I am quite stubborn about not accepting anything less. So until that sweet day that I meet someone man enough to be his own man, therefore not so puppeteered by some culture rules that he lessens the worth of his existence, I will revel in my single life, basking in the fact that at least I'm living life by the standards not set by some culture, but set by the individual ME.
Artistic Review: Michael Carmine's SHOWBOY (10/21/08) [View | Hide]
From the moment I started this blog, I wanted it to be about more than just porn, more than just sex. As much as I love the two, I know that there is more out there to make life fun. Things like taking in a good live performance once in a while. And I did such a thing this past Friday night by going to see Michael Carmine for a one night only performance of his one-man show entitled, SHOWBOY.
Michael Carmine is the same Michael from my post about doing the AIDS Walk this year. Once I discovered he was a performer, I always wanted to see him in action. Especially after seeing how much of a character he was during the AIDS Walk. I thought to myself he must be an explosion of energy that rains on the audience when he takes to the stage. And my theory was proven as fact on Friday night as to how nothing could be closer to the truth about Michael.
Before the show even began, I had high expectations just by reading the intro he wrote on the 1st page of the program. It reads:
It has been my privilege to share this moment with you
It all comes down to a dream. When I first put this show together, I was at a point where I thought I had everything. Then life hit me right between the eyes. I felt lost, distracted and disoriented. I thought to myself, what can I do to get myself out of this dark place? I know I'll put on a show! I scheduled the date made the arrangements to put on a one night only musical spectacular. One month to the original opening night, I thought to myself, I can't do this. Not now at least I wasn't in a place where I could focus 100% on my creativity. I wasn't doing it for the right reason. I was still in a victim consciousness. So I rescheduled the date and got right to work. It was a tough journey but I got the show exactly where I wanted it to be, both creatively and spiritually. In the end, it all comes down to this. The goal is not to be more famous or more rich. The goal is, what do you have to say? Your job is to guide people, and to inspire people. You have to understand that you are not the owner of your talent. You are the manager, and if you manage it wisely, you will always have it. If you ever think for a second that you own it, you will lose it.
Love and Light,
Michael Carmine
What struck me most in that intro was him saying how our goals should be about saying things to guide and inspire. I defintely can relate which is how this blog came to be the sometimes controversal voice of mine that it is today.
And those high expectations were not disappointed not one bit either. In fact, I can go as far to say that the sensual and vibrant dancing Michael did while doing covers of songs by Madonna, Kylie Minogue, George Michael, Charlotte Church and Adam Garcia gave me the high of watching great entertainment that filled the void created last Sunday from HustlaBall.
YES, Michael is just that great a manager of his talents. Enough so that he allows other great talents to shine as well. Such as his special guests:
Amy Lynn Zanetto. Will some major label sign her PLEASE, so that her voice gets the exposure it truly deserves? But I must implore that Mr. Big Label Guy doesn't do the typical thing big labels do and try to be the boss of her talents. Let her magnificent voice be the guide; and
Dan Crowley. I love passing on compliments that have been given to me at some point. And here I must pass on as to how Dan's lyrics paint a picture, and it's sometimes of things we don't realize we've been looking at the whole time. But if it wasn't for those words,we may have walked away and missed it. And his soothing voice makes it that much easier to get the message.
With all that, yet it was a one-night only performance, then why review it, some may ask? Because you see, I'm a man of my word. I make my life away from the sex industry cameras about more than just porn and sex. So I want to show off what you missed out on if you didn't follow me in doing the same. And it's not like I left you out of the loop. All you had to do was look to the right of this blog and in the "Interests/Hobbies" section of my DList profile and see the animated advertisement. It was right there for your left eye to catch moving. Just a simple click on it, and you could have joined in on the fun.
It seems my titles regarding my experiences during this year's HustlaBall wind up with a question mark at the end. It's because the events I'm recalling initiate a question that you will get an answer to by the end. Such as how I made you wonder if I found HustlaBall to be a bust. Now, I'll make you wonder if this experience I'm about to recall has me considering becoming an escort. Well, you're about to find out.
I have often corrected the notion here that just because I do porn, that does not mean I am also an escort. They are 2 separate things. For one, as a porn actor, it is inevitable that there will be sex and it will be seen by the public, while as an escort, sex might be involved, and whether that sex is seen would be up to a client/escort agreement. I AM ONLY A PORN ACTOR, but the aforementioned misconception may have led to my getting a little experience as an escort.
While I was at HustlaBall, a gentleman approached me saying that he saw me at the Gay Erotic Expo, an he thought I was really cute. I thanked him for the compliment. He then asked me if I wanted to have some fun. I responded by telling him that the only fun I have is for free, and I don't get paid for it. And he wasn't a bad looking guy at all, so having fun was actually a possibility. This happened just as the VIP Lounge was starting to get jumping somewhat, so I was by means ready to distract myself with anything else, especially after paying for that VIP ticket. With that in mind, I told him that I may be interested later.
Later came sooner than I thought.
While I was talking to someone I only chatted with at Daniel Nardicio's Oktoberfist the night before, that same gentleman walked pass me. I greeted him with a smile as he passed by. The next thing I knew, while I was still chatting with the guy from Oktoberfist, the gentleman was coming over to me offering me a beer. He then whisked me off over near a small area on one side of the bar. We conversated with him asking me things about the porn business. I did allow him to feel me up to the point of giving me a hard-on. I know he wanted more, but I didn't allow it. He even wanted to give me a blowjob right there. But I stopped him because Daniel Nardicio was hosting the VIP Lounge, but I wasn't working it. So tonight, I might allow a patron to cop a feel of my cock, but not a taste.
He actually put money in my pocket for spending time with him. He gave me the option to leave, but since he really was a gentleman, I stayed with him a little longer before going back to the party. It was then that I caught up with Vin Nolan and Sergio Anthony.
Me and my friend Ben Marksman had a discussion about escorting, where we concluded as to how it's no different from any other profession out here. Because the bottom line is that as long as you are not compromising yourself, then you are fine doing what you do. So for I or anyone else to look down upon it is hypocritical. I enjoyed the pleasure I gave this gentleman by only being in his company, and I don't feel I compromised myself at all. Now while others would not have compromised themselves had they went any further than I did, I knew that I personally would have, hence why I can't be an escort. Therefore, while I am not a pornstar/escort as some assume are one and the same, I am just Tré Xavier - Porn Actor, and I'm content with that.
I actually sprung for a VIP ticket to Hustlaball this year. Some of you may not know this, but I did throw my name into the hat to be a possible performer. So before some of you come back at me, I will admit that buy buying a ticket to Hustlaball, I broke my rule of how after numerous tries to be part one of a companies' entertainers, that if I'm not good enough to entertain for you, then my money is not good enough for you either. So why did I break that rule of mine, you ask?
For the experience of getting some idea of those with the connections or appeared to have garnered the credentials to get in for a discount or nothing at all. So I had to pay for a ticket with my own hard earned money to get a taste of what they experience.
The next question I'm sure many of you are asking is whether or not it was worth it. And the answer to that is sad to say only somewhat. I really wasn't that impressed. That's why while I did have my camera, there aren't more pictures from me to share. And just so you know, before I go any further, my sentiments are not because I'm feeling jilted. The proof is that some of the actual perfomers share my sentiments in how lacking this HustlaBall was. You see, this may seem strange, but if I'm not picked to be on the roster of performers, I want to envy the fact that I wasn't chosen. Because the envy lets me know I was overlooked for a production well done. But due to the lackluster feelings shared by some from both parts of the produciton, performers and patrons, I have no envy.
I actually feel that all I paid for was the VIP room entertainment, and even that fell short for me. Daniel Nardicio hosted the VIP room and the only dancers that maintain Daniel's reputation of sexual freedom were Myles (who I've danced with at Sugarland) and June from B.C. Productions' Chocolate Cream movies.
June is a new object of my lust.
And he has some idea of the lust bucket I am, because he saw my "being playful" and taking full advantage of the no clothing option at Daniel Nardicio's Oktoberfist the night before.
From what I've seen of him in his movies, he's a little big dicked-bottom. And while I constantly attest to not being a size queen, I do love big dicked-bottoms, so I can have this nice long schlong to play with while I'm giving him a primal fuck. I also love the fact that he's shorter me with a bigger cock than mine, just like Shorty J. in "The Interview". Shorty J. in case you didn't know is 5' 2" with a 9-incher, while I'm 5' 6' with about 8". And that being shorter than me while having a bigger cock makes me fantasize about June topping my ass me just like Shorty J did.
Maybe some dancer went as far as June and Myles after I walked away, but as long as I was there, and as cute as they were, it would have been better to see more guys being more risque. After all, this weekend was publicized as being so erotic with The Gay Erotic Expo and HustlaBall being on the same weekend. If may be because of the "hypocritical prudence stick in the ass" of New York legislation repressing sexuality that I spoke of in talking about the Erotic Expo, but it killed the fun I was expecting. I wasn't expecting the sexual madhouse Daniel Nardicio's parties usually create, but I was hoping to see something that a better amount more to the horniness I got from hanging with the likes of Ricky Sinz and Vinnie D'Angelo at the Expo.
Speaking of Ricky Sinz, I was in the area they used for smoking with Vin Nolan and Sergio Anthony, and Ricky Sinz came by. He had a hard-on, and he pulled it out to have that hot pink one-eyed monster peaking out of his underwear. We broke off into separate conversations after a couple of minutes. I later looked back at him, and saw his cock was still hard. NO, much to my chagrin, I didn't offer my ass and he fucked me so hard that my hole is still throbbing from his pounding, but I did reach over and feel it. It may not seem like much, but you must admit that it is better for your fantasy to touch it in some way than to just gawk at it and drool like a hungry dog.
Now speaking of the area used for smoking, it brought a bit more excitement to the evening. But not good excitement, because a fire broke out below that area. I went up there with Vin and Sergio, and we all including the couple of people already up there could smell fire. We were trying to figure out where it was coming from. Well THANKS to Vin, we found out where. The area's floor and walls are made of wood. Vin took his lighter and looked between the wall and floor, and looked below, and that's where we could see the fire. I saw it myself, and it wasn't small. In fact, the smoke got intense enough that after a couple of minutes of standing there, the smoke started hurting our eyes. For a time it seemed as if the party was over, because 2 fire trucks were called in, and the building was evacuated leaving some guys to go outside shirtless, and some performers to go outside in their underwear.
Although, some used the situation to be hams and use the fire truck as a backdrop.
Anyway, the party did resume, but after quite a few people left thinking that wasn't going to be the case. Especially with parts of the club closed off, such as the area where the shows were taking place.
With all that being said, do I feel that I will go next year. Most likely not, and that decision has nothing to do with the fire. It's because of everything I mentioned before. If I do attend, I will most definitely not be paying for a VIP ticket, because my only motivation will be to chill with friends of mine that might be there. So far that, I'll do what I did last year, and pay the general admission price. Because you know like they say, "if it ain't broke, don't fix it", while paying for a general admission ticket last year, I was happier with the end result. So this further solidifies the truth behind the saying of how you can't buy happiness.
The Expo's Back To SOME Exposin' (10/16/08) [View | Hide]
The 1st and last time I did the Gay Erotic Expo was in 2005 representing Tyson Cane videos. Since then I've had a number of people ask me in both 2006 and 2007, if I was going to be there or if Tyson Cane was doing anything. With the revelation of Tyson Cane true character coming to light, the latter was not of my concern. So my presence was solely based on me finding a quality company to be worthy of my representation.
I won't rehash that entire story. Just do a search here for "Knight Stick Films" and one or more of those entries will tell all.
I was at the Gay Erotic Expo this year at the booth for Max Scott Events. Being that his events like WOOF at View Bar and G.R.U.F.F. at The Eagle have pornstars from a variety of studios as guests, it makes sense why I was sharing a space with pornstars from other studios like Vin Nolan, Tony Serrano, Vinnie D'Angleo, Raging Stallion Lifetime Exclusive, Ricky Sinz, as well as go-go boys Torez, Julio and Ray, and my co-stars from "All Out Assault", Mike Dreyden and Jason Grey.
Let me breakdown my thoughts on the fellow partners in crime that I met for the 1st time by working with them at Max Scott's booth.
First, Vinnie D'Angelo was such a sweetheart. who has that kind of nice plump ass that I love to grope while getting mine pounded.
Ricky Sinz, whose explanation of my feelings about are going to be a bit verbose, because I have something to confess. That being how I didn't pay much attention while seeing him in movies like "Ink Storm" or "Hotter Than Hell". But after seeing him do his thing at G.R.U.F.F. at The Eagle, and standing right next to him and seeing that hot bod up close at The Gay Erotic Expo - let's just say if he was craving to release some tension by way of a fuck of savagery, I wouldn't object to being his prop for that release.
Tony Serrano, who is such a cute and sweet guy with 2 little dogs that everyone who came by our booth couldn't help but adore while lusting for him.
Julio and Ray, are two new go-go boys that Max Soctt hired. I saw them for the 1st time at G.R.U.F.F. the night before, but didn't meet them until the Expo. I seem to wind up in group sex scenarios on and off-camera, so to wind up being the 3rd wheel during the stage performance at the Expo was not a surprise. And considering how FUCKIN' HOT the 2 of them are, it was a more than welcomed surprise, because I was a lucky 3rd wheel.
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Although, some used the situation to be hams and use the fire truck as a backdrop. 
